As much as I want too look around and cry, nothing will change. Nothing will ensure that everything will be okay, that I’ll one day feel the love I need from all of you. I can’t wake up from this nightmare no matter how hard I pinch myself. why do i have to look at you every day with love in my heart, despise in my head and a smile on my face. One day i’ll be gone and out of your way and i bet you can’t wait, all of you.